Hello, please I need your help, I met this guy 5 months ago, he's nice and cool, he asked me out and I said no,because i am not ready for a relationship and he also told me he has a girlfriend who's not always available and doesn't have his time. We became so close, like best friends, he wants more but I couldn't, he has a girl. Unfortunately I fell in love with him, yeah, I know it's love because I never felt that way before. I tried all my best to avoid him thereafter, because I knew it was a bad idea, but he keeps coming back, I couldn't hold back also, he's the first person I fell in love with. I told him, he said he also felt that way since he met me. We were very close that I began to forget he has a girlfriend. I only see him once in a while, but we talk and chat on phone daily. We then chatted about sex and so, I told him I'm a Virgin, he said he had sex before. I love him so much, sometimes I even buy our meal. He said he will love to be with me forever, i told him our age difference is quite much, hes 26 and im 18, but he told me it doent mean, that love matters. One day he took me to his sister's house, she went for holiday. We planned on having sex, and he promised he'll be gentle on me. When we got there, he kissed me, that was my first kiss, then he offed my cloth, I didn't care aslong as he's the one, the one I loved, and he loved me. As he was about do it, I told him not to, then he didn't, he wore my cloth back for me, he always promise me he'll never rape me, so he drove me back home that night. He didn't call or chat me, I called him the next day he didn't pick then I called again he shouted on me and hanged up when he picked, I couldn't believe it, I cried, I remembered the days he use to call me for hours and beg me not to sleep yet because he wants to hear my voice. I remembered everything he always tell me like, he'll never leave me, he love me. I didn't love him from start but I don't know how I fell in love, but I think he's over it now, he doesn't call unless I call him, whenever I call him hell tell me I just forget him. I couldn't bear it, I deleted his number. But I swear I still love him, I can't stop thinking about him, I cry everyday I'm stuck to him and I don't think I can love another person. Please help how can I get over this.

March 20, 2022, 8 p.m.